Live For Yourself

2010-01-08T22:21:00.001-08:00

good news !! i passed all my common tests :)) which means ?? no RETESTS !! :D finally after so damn long.... i can relax after CTs.. :) hope this keeps up and i hopefully can do well for exams !! coming freakin soon... sian !! :/

2010-01-06T03:21:00.000-08:00

if you're my girlfriend, I promise I won't hurt you, if you're mine, I promise I'd be loyal to you, but you're only my friend and I can't promise I won't fall for you.

its just all wishful thinking..

2010-01-04T09:01:00.000-08:00

first day of school !!! found out i passed mpi ! i'm happy yea ! but now left with 3 more modules..
damn sian... hope the results turn out fine... =/
day of sch ain't so bad i guess... so far nothing went wrong i guess... but it just feels super duper insanely boring =/
its a new year !! supposedly happy yet down.. ahh well... lets hope the remaining days are better.. =)

love is a freakin lie ~

2009-12-31T07:08:00.000-08:00

This day is filled with regrets =(

Last day of 2009

2009-12-30T19:06:00.000-08:00

Its been months since i saw this page.. But it sure brings back memories but it ain't all good memories.
To think my last few posts were almost to the end of last yr and now i'm here posting again on the last day of 2009!
It sure has been a fun yet chaotic year for everyone.. I don't want the year to end too fast though.. Time passes way too fast for me to even imagine.. After today, i will be 20 in that year:(
Like what i have always said, i wish for things to rewind backwards, or at least stay where it is. Life has indeed turn out better this year but it still ain't good though but i'm stil trying my best.

Christmas this year was frigging awesome ! Sang with the choir ! Yeah, i'm back with the choir again. Haha. It's fun, seriously.. Went back recently and found out there are new members, i'm also consideed 'new' as i've MIA-ed for a long time HAHA. But we had many practises for the midnight mass and everything paid off. It was damn awesome and everyone enjoyed themselves :) hope you all have ! Merry Belated Christmas to one and all ! God bless you all :)

I really don't know what to type anymore.. But let's just forget the past, leave it all behind ! And look forward to the new year ! :) year 2010 ! :)

May each and everyone of you have a wonderful and blessed new year ahead :)

2009-04-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

This few days is ever so boring, what do i do everyday ? So far its been slacking and slacking.
Seriously like no life man. Friends everywhere all not free, or just dont really bother.
No work to earn money and past the time, been spending like money's water LOL !!
school's starting in about a week's plus time !!! omg ! don know whether will get used to it.
The waking up early and long bus rides and doing of homework hahahaha :D
Recently like alot of problems, not just me but also amongst my friends.
Don know what to do.. haiz..
As you grow older, seldom will you still contact your friends.
kindergarten i got like afew cause they're from my church.
pri sch got sme that still got meet up.
sec sch got afew, mainly those who are at same poly as me.
now in poly, frens that i have made, and are close and good ones, not many.. so yeah..
where can we find real friendship where everyone will stick together...
ITS ALL BULL !! :)

what else is there to do ?? this wk mainly taken up cause i will be going church..
aahhhhhhh ! day of obligation i tink but yea.. its a must to go :)
but don know why sme ppl jus don go.. aahhh whatever... don reli bother anymore..
all there is to do.. is to enjoy the remaining holidays :) hahaha..

Why is life so unfair ?

2009-04-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

I do see that my blog is almost dead.. having nothing or no time to blog ?
Its the holidays and they are ending soon though.
Hoping to find a good job to survive this holidays, earning some cash to buy stuffs.
But nothing, there was nothing. Everyday sleep late, wake up late.
Go out, spend money. Going broke soon !!
Well i got my results not long.. can say about a month ?
i'm thankful i passed the been repeated mods.. but yet i fail once again. haiz.
was supposed to study during this hols, dad's idea.. but to no avail..
nothing !!!! no mood for anything.. all i can jus think of is slack slack slack !
wasting my life away i would say..
Well, been playing mahjong here and there..
these few wks, i tink im like fkin sick ! cough, sore throat, flu, breathing difficulties.. haiz..
@ home is fked up.. go out frens stilll okay but still will be fked up...
WHEN CAN I EVER FIND A DAY WHERE I CAN FULLY RELAX AND ENJOY AND WONT HAVE ANY TROUBLES....
then these few days.. amongst all my frens.. alot of shit stuffs happened...
really dont know what to do anymore.. try to help or ask.. but to no avail..
up til now.. i stilll DO question the meaning of FRIENDSHIP...
what does it take to be a friend ?
what can you do to be a good/better friend?
there's alot of questions u can ask and yet they can never be answered..
well, where can we ever find perfect ppl ? perfect friendships ?
everything all fked up... all jus a stupid lie... haiz...
alot of ppl bothering me with this bothering me with that..
yet some dont even bother at all when i'm trying ... : (
i really dont know wad else to do anymore..
even this holidays is going to end.. i also dont know what else i can do..
continue wif sch living a fked up life..
well enuff of my nonsence.. tired of it alr...
hope i will blog again soon....

SO LONG AND GOODBYE !

2009-02-01T03:37:00.000-08:00

Its finally yr 2009 ! its been wks since i've blogged.. been lazy til i practically forogt about having a blog.. =/
how to say ah.. the beginning of this yr.. was alright i guess.. but gotten back my tests and everything.. well i failed 3 out of 4 of my CTs.. had e retests.. passed one.. and bla bla bla..

and CNY jus began not long... it was okay i guess..

but i tink life has gone back to how it was.. nothing's change..
everyone comes and go.. sme frens tell me..
choose your frens wisely.. don choose a fren and jus to lose them again..
well.. i guess i have not been wise at all.. i don even know who are they anymore..
lost track of everything.. life jus doesnt seem to flow smoothly..
frens used to hace, are now gone.. all cuz of wad us humans always do..
STUPID THINGS.. well.. human is to err.. no one is perfect..
but i jus don get it.. i don understand anyone.. don get anybody..
life is so bloody fkin out of point.. don know what to do wif my life DD:

haiz.. now is feb.. exams are coming.. this will decide if i still can remain in sch..
time to go study and do my hmwk...
shall blog again soon if i rmb..

2008-12-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

i guess christmas ain't so bad after all :)

Time passes so fast... christmas jus over..
soon it will be a new year ! 2009 ! oh man im turning 19 soon !! haha old liao.. =/
hope everything will be fine next yr.. =)

still tryin to leave everything behind.. this 2008.. loads of shit happened which is difficult for me to let go..
but i guess... as what others will say... its time to carry on with our life.. leave e past behind and look forward to the future, wouldnt know what lies ahead of us.. have to find out ourselves..

i hope u have been fine... well, it seems that u are okay abt it alr ? but i dont know man..
smetimes i stil duno wads on ur mind.. how i wish u would share more... =/
its all up to you.. i hope u're able to be independent and tink at a higher level.. and separate e gd and e bad..
takecares my fren :)

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!! venting all the shits here.....
it seems and feels like its all gone.. but jus tinkin abt it.. or hearin ppl talk abt it...
it reli gets to me !!!!! arrrghhhhh !!!!!! how i wish im more daring and not so scared of everything :(
duno wad to do... =/

well this seems like a weird post uh.. haha..
anyways.. new year's coming !! happy new year to one and all !!!! :)

2008-12-23T18:38:00.000-08:00

anyway before i say.. my date for e blog kinda mixed up..
shld be 24 dec now.. haha.. so yeah.. =]

now back to blogging....................................... ==

OMG !!! I PASSED MY TP !!! :DDDD

finalllyyyy i passed !! wad a close shave man.....
not reli gonna talk abt how i drove or whatsoever hahaha..
but i'm jus glad its all over !! no more stresss...
no more going back to ubi on sats !! hahaahaha :)

finally can drive !! yay !! cant drive to sch yet tho X: hahaha.. slowly..
anyway its CHRISTMAS EVE !!!! wish everyone early MERRY CHRISTMAS !!
and A HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!! :DDDD

takecares people & haf fun opening presents tonight (:

today! today ! the saviour has been born...
the saviour has been born... today !
lets not forget that christmas is the day where jesus christ was born (:
give thanks and praise the lord ! haha ^^

i hope u're feelin betr already... anyways do takecare of yourself..
takecare of your health.. i know i worry too much, tink too much..
but its jus me... wad can i do = i'll be glad so long as you're happy (:

2008-12-22T05:28:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since i last blogged... im freakin lazy luh hahaha..

CHRISTMAS IS COMING !!!! :DD

hope everyone has done their shopping !! will probly do mine tmr ! haha (:

anyways....
well loads of shitxzxz been happening.. don wanna mention it alr...
jus the though of it makes my blood boil... haha yeah (:
tryin to forget abt it ! well... feelin full of regrets, full of anger and hatred..
all felt at the same time.. but there's nth i can do..
the only thing i can do, muz do and will do ! is help her..
don care whether she thinks im a bother, tinks im irritating or whatsoever..
i don care haha.. as long as she's okay then im fine.. hahaha..
tend to be overly concern ? i dont know.. its jus me bah...
the fear inside me has not been curbed yet.. if not things will be different.. i guess..
anyway enough of that...

my event was jus over last wk... it kinda went along quite well...
somehow or rather they enjoyed it haha..
altho my shoes and jeans got all muddy -.- but yea.. fun (:

anyway, its my TP tomorrow !! my actual driving test !!
i cant believe it.. i'm so so nervous... hope i can pass !!
well.. i'm gonna sleep now ! so i'm able to concentrate for tmr !! hahaha !

goodnight people !

Life is full of SHITHOLE MOFOs.

2008-12-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

Life seriously aint going well... don't any of you guys think so ??
why are there such thing called friends ?? have also dont last long..
dont know why but these few days or shld i say.. past few wks..
no mood at all.. alot of shit happens.. also dont know WHY THE FUCK IT DID ?!!?!
i'm trying to curb my anger.. to curb my attitude.. but aahhhh i cant freakin take it..
are there such people around ?? SHITHOLE BOOTLICKERS ?!?!
is really any of the other shitzxzxz you're doing helping ? doing any good ?
it jus makes your mouth feel good right.. get a life asswipe..

aahhhhhh this is one Fugly post cause i'm trying to vent my fkin emotions !!!!!!!
friends dont last long.. they never do.. i can see.. one by one.. friends jus come and go..
i know i'm jus thinkin negative.. but wtf ? even if we don wan them to go..
but is also things that they do.. wad fkin good does it do ???
why cant everyone jus get along.. well if they could then there would reli have world peace !!!

then jokes... fucking jokes.. which part of it sound funny to u?? tell me.. jus tell me..
ohh man i duno wad e fuck is wrong with everyone..
i also duno wad e fuck is wrong wif me.. =/

i jus wish for time to come to a stop or best.. rewind backwards where everything was how it used to be..
i guess.. this is something that we all cant change... EVER !!! =/

I wanna be myself, have the friends i use to have or dont have.
but it seems nothing will ever change for the better.
only time can tell on what will happen.